Human Nature

Human nature makes me act one way,  I'm learning &praying to do the opposite nowadays.

It's easy to be angry, harder to just let it go.
It's easy to be negative, than to always try to keep it in the positive.
It's easy to jump to conclusions, than to find out the truth for yourself.
It's easy to think the worst in people &blame them, than to empathize & try to understand why they act the way they do.
It's easy to fall to temptations, than it is to walk away from them.
Romans 8.

"Stop walking in pride, let the thief be crucified
Un-learn everything you know, and let him teach you
Line upon line, precept upon precept, say goodbye,
To this decaying social system
He wants to know, how far we're willing to go
If we love him like we say we do,
He will try us" -AdamLivesInTheory

Unlearn what you think you know. Keep questioning. Keep Growing.
People can make you feel a certain way about yourself but as long as you know where you're trying to go, it's a-ok.
I've always been a work in progress anyway.

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Self control. Patience. Understanding. PRAYER.

But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. -2 Corinthians 12:9

I have so many questions I want to have answered right now but I know I need to practice patience through my weakness. It's so hard when it's so easy for me to go backwards to what is comfortable. I know that I just need to be strong and trust in God's love and in the fact that He is working within me. There are things and actions that I cannot change anymore, that are shameful and impulsive, but I am aware and trying to forget and forgive myself. Whatever is missing in my life, I know that I need to allow the Lord to fill in that void, and nothing and no one else.

I'm thankful for these days of solitude so I can speak more clearly to Him. No distractions, no temptations.

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On another note, today has been relaxing and full of goodness.

I was blessed to be offered another photo shoot with UCLA for their Father's Day spread with none other than my own DAD! He's so excited and I'm so glad he gets to be in it with me. Details after Thursday.

Installation Banquet tonight, can't wait.

-Cammille

Library notes.

One of my favorite things is hiding out at the Young Research Library at UCLA with my headphones on, jammin' to J Dilla, absolutely content in this space with intelligent ass people, just doin' work. It's the best energy to be around. Sight + sound.


Other than that, life has been so good. I've had a lot of things on my mind and just want to note them here because they're significant to me:

1. At church the other day, the homily was about loving one another and that you don't necessarily have to like everyone, but you can still love them at the end of the day and wish them well. Word to His Word. There are people out there that we don't necessarily like or always want to be around....that's life, we clash because not everything is always butterflies and rainbows, but if you wish people well and hope for the best for them despite your differences, I think it makes all the difference.
   
2. He was also talking about the different types of LOVE that exist in the Bible. Eros, Philia and Agape. From my understanding, Eros and Philia are both based on perception and situation and are mostly physical. They thrive on romantic situations and once that changes, the love ceases to exist. Agape, God's love, thrives not on the environment or perceptions, but on our care for each other, for loving our enemies, despite any circumstances. SELFLESS love. <3
3. On another completely different note, I've been trying to live a more active lifestyle lately and it feels so damn good! Since my accident I got a trainer at the UCLA Wooden Center and she's been such a blessing! I was never an active person before but I loooove that feeling after a good workout. I feel my body changing and getting stronger and I love ittt. Especially coming from my accident, it really opened up my eyes to take care of my body and what I put into. Not to mention bikini season is cominnnng! HAYYY!
4. I am more and more excited about summer in LA. There are so many opportunites and possibilities out here! I caaaaan't wait.
   

Anyway, off to do work, have a blessed day people.
PEACE

come to me and I will give you rest.

Dear Lord,

I need you now because I am full of stress and anxiety. Reading your Word brings comfort, as I ask you to come and take my heavy burdens. I take each burden, one by one, and lay them at your feet. Please carry them for me so that I don't have to. Replace them with your humble and gentle yoke so that I will find rest for my soul today. I receive your gift of peace of mind and heart. Thank you that I can lie down tonight in peace and sleep. I know that you, Lord, will keep me safe. I am not afraid because you are always with me. Please keep me daily, Lord, in your perfect peace.

Amen.

-Mary Fairchild

Thank you Jamielou for this.
Let go & Let God.

praise.

I am so thankful for all of His blessings. Who am I to complain about anything in my life. The Lord has blessed me abundantly with everything I could possibly need right now and I need to remind myself to accept the way that the Lord wants everything to be. I trust in Him and his plans for me, even when my heart is conflicted, all I want is to bring it up to the Lord, I know he will show me the way. All of my strength and everything that I am is thanks to His love.

Slow & steady and constantly in prayer.
I will get through this week.

In the quiet, in the stillness
I know that you are God
In the secret of your presence
I know there I am restored
When you call I won't refuse
Each new day, again I'll choose

There is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now I live to bring Him praise

In the chaos, in confusion
I know you're sovereign still
In the moment of my weakness
You give me grace to do your will
When you call I won't delay
This my song through all my days

There is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now I live to bring Him praise

I am yours and you are mine...

All my delight is in you Lord
All of my hope
All of my strength
All my delight is in you Lord
Forevermore