On friends.

It's amazing how the universe works out just the way it is supposed to and how God puts people in your life for very specific reasons. Sometimes, they are reasons that are very apparent and sometimes they're for reasons that can't be understood until you've reflected and allowed yourself to understand.

There were people in my life that I thought would be there forever. I never thought I'd ever lose touch with them, but through situations and life taking its course, I eventually did. It broke my heart at the time. It even filled me with anger, resentment, guilt even because I couldn't understand how friendships so pure and joyful could turn sour.

But now I understand.

Without losing those people along the way, I wouldn't cherish the friends I keep close to me as much as I do. I wouldn't value integrity, trust and respect as much as I do now. I wouldn't know how important it is to never forget your friends even if you have a boyfriend. I wouldn't know that if people truly wanted to be in your life, they'd find a way to do it. I wouldn't know that some people do take your kindness for weakness and friendships aren't as mutual as you'd like them to be.

There are also people I thought were meant to be acquaintances. People I wrongly assumed wouldn't be able to vibe with me, are now some of the people I yearn to be with the most. The older you get, the more you realize what matters, who is authentic, who really cares about your well-being and you start observing their true character and values that people have.

Over the past couple of months, I've been really really blessed to have connected and/or strengthened my relationships with a lot of people whom I had grown distant with, and even better... realized I was  meant to have in my life. I value true friendship, alot. I value friendships that aren't self-centered and only at the convenience of one person. I won't lose sleep over situations like that anymore, because it was never my loss to begin with. It's just the way the world works and eventually, if people come around again, then that's how it was meant to happen.

So for now, I'm just really grateful for people I can trust, people whom I can consider family, people who were meant to be in my life to continue to teach me and be an example to me of people I aspire to be like. I am learning DAILY and that is awesome.