This summer is a special summer to me. For the first time in what seems like forever, I am allowing myself to relish in this moment of being completely unsure of my future. I've always been the type to always have a plan and goals to reach by a certain age, and though I am completely all for them, I actually like taking this time off to simply reboot.
How much more exhilarating is life knowing that your future is left in your own hands to create? I don't have a job lined up nor any extra curricular activities, but for ONCE, I am actually waking up everyday enjoying myself, thinking things thoroughly and really getting in tune with who I am. Not to say that everything I used to do in the past wasn't beneficial to me now, hell, I wouldn't be here if I didn't want to do a million different things at once, but I've finally allowed what "I have to do" to take a backseat for once in my life.
I've always been the busy girl, or even, the girl that was "too busy". I secretly hated it because it meant to me that I didn't know that balance between work and play. I can't blame anyone for it either, because in hindsight, it was true. But now I'm trying to make a conscious effort to truly be there and focus on my friendships and relationships. I felt like my life was on the fast track for so long... a complete whirlwind from high school to college, and now I'm finally able to look back on it all and let out that huge sigh of relief that I've held in for so long.
It's an exciting time of my life and I wake up everyday thankful that I even get the choice to even have one. Stay blessed,
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